We got bad news at the doctor’s office today.
There were many questions, left unanswered.
When there wasn’t much left to say, the three of us walked out into the lobby. My mom wanted to sit down for awhile, in a corner, in a quiet spot by the window.
I asked if they wanted me to leave so they could be alone.
My stepfather said, “Oh, no, no, no.”
They sat next to each other on a comfortable light blue suede couch. I pulled a chair over next to them. And the three of us sat there silently.
After awhile, when the silence didn’t give up any answers, we decided it was time to go.
We waited outside in the shade, beneath the trees that lined the paved oval in front of the sliding glass doors. They brought my car first. I hugged them both and said goodbye.
“Love you.”
I got in my car and sat staring out the window at the two of them, until they looked up and back at me.
I smiled and waved.
They waved goodbye. And I drove away.
Damn.
Posted by: fish | July 16, 2008 at 09:37 PM
Everywhere, people care. My heart hurts for you and yours, BG. Transitions are hell. Sending comfort and care through the ether your way.
Posted by: Wren | July 17, 2008 at 02:47 AM
You're all in my thoughts, BG.
Posted by: Jennifer | July 17, 2008 at 08:15 AM
BG, I am so sorry to hear that.
Posted by: Brando | July 17, 2008 at 08:54 AM
you and your family are in my heart and thoughts. I hope you tell your mom and stepfather they have many friends they have never met, thinking good thoughts and sending love and energy their way .....any of course, that goes to you too! namaste.
Posted by: kim | July 17, 2008 at 09:33 AM
I'm wishing and hoping for the best. Stay strong.
Posted by: Kevin Wolf | July 17, 2008 at 09:48 AM
I am sorry.
Please call on us if you need anything. Anything at all.
Posted by: Adorable Girlfriend | July 17, 2008 at 01:56 PM
I'm so sorry. Sending you good thoughts....
Posted by: Von | July 17, 2008 at 02:33 PM
Thanks everyone. Today's a better day. All your thoughts and words help a ton.
Posted by: blue girl | July 17, 2008 at 05:40 PM
Love and hugs from here. Kisses too.
Posted by: Claire | July 17, 2008 at 07:27 PM
Best wishes, kiddo, to you and yours.
Posted by: Snag | July 18, 2008 at 02:06 AM
Just... damn.
Hang in there.
Posted by: Mendacious D | July 18, 2008 at 01:10 PM
my heart hurts for you
Posted by: Kathleen in Oakland | July 18, 2008 at 01:53 PM
So hard... so damned hard.
Hang tough, dear. And when you can't-- lean on all the people that so obviously care so much about you. That's why those people are in your life!
Posted by: Deeples | July 18, 2008 at 02:59 PM
Just belatedly read this, Blue.
Lots of love to you and your big heart.
Posted by: Dan Leo | July 18, 2008 at 07:30 PM
So very sorry.
Anything you need, please let me know.
Posted by: Shayera | July 22, 2008 at 05:16 PM